ever since thursday i have been really down and out. it really sucks.! i feel so alone with this sometimes. i mean it's such a rare allergy that people tend to ignore it and think, "maybe she just doesn't like tomatoes". it sucks. and i want to cry. i'm trying to look for support groups, but the only ones out there are for wheat, dairy and nuts. nothing for the more rare allergies, or allergies in general. if it was a general one, that would be fine, but they are all specific. i have ordered a new med bracelet, because the one i have sucks and is kinda a little broken (it won't open so you can read the insert). and i want revenge. i want to get back at them for doing this to me. they have made me SO MAD! but i also don't want to get myself or anyone else i know in trouble by doing something we shouldn't. i want to be happy again.....but i'm not sure how. i had been doing SO GOOD. i was happy, and not panicing any more. i was finally doing something good for myself. and thursday just blew everything to shit in my mind.
for those of you who don't know, i have a life-threating allergy to tomatoes in any form. thursday night i went to a new place and ordered food, giving my normal disclaimer of the food allergy, and they ignored it, and i won myself a trip to the ER for approximatly 4 hours thursday night (and four spots on my body that have been pricked with some type of needle, including an IV). since then myself and a few of my friends have called the establihment to try and get some sort of acknowledgement about the incident, and so far none has been recieved.
It just isn't fair. there should be some sort of law stating the rights i have, and there should be mandatory training in ALL facilities where foods are served so that someone like me doesnt end up eating the wrong thing and dying. i was lucky this time. but what about next time? or even the next person to step in that place. how would they feel had they actually killed someone? GRRRRRRRRRR!
it just sucks people. and it's bringing me down hardcore!